here is the story of my life.....just but to mention....its complicated...born to the most loving parents some very many years ago.....(am old LOL)....i lived a very happy and cheerful childhood.....one to die for, how i miss those days....been a child, the most precious gift you possessed was one of INNOCENCE.... unfortunately my innocence was robbed of immediately i clocked 18!!!
at that particular time it never really mattered to me... i wanted to be free and INDEED i was free....from school(the syk i had immediately after finishing my F4) oh my it was unbelievable......
in 2008 december 30th i met my boyfriend....call it love at first sight....the much love i had for this young man was unbelievable. no force could ever break what we had.....this went on until one fateful day, a day that i promised to forget (am glad its all in the past now) 17th April, i was so heartbroken...i could not believe it...i wanted to crush , i wanted the whole world to cramble and take me with it.....
i lied to myself that i can move on....i could not, i was not strong enough...i could bare this any more...i saw the love of my life taken.....and he went....
i prayed, but my prayers clearly hit the roof, they never reached to Him...i waited and waited for a sign....and NOTHING....i thought it was the end of me....
with the little energy that i had, i went to work...until one fateful day....ONE FATEFUL DAY!!!!i had had enough of the beatings, the torture and depression.......it was high time i took action
i sneaked out of the office and went home. i had already decided, it was time...... time i left the earth to a better place....the GRAVE. i believed the grave was the best place for me...no heartbreaks, no loneliness just PEACE....the one grabbed away from me.....DEATH was my case this time round....
i went home took the pills and i made sure called my boyfriend to tell him BYE........i took and i went....to a land of nothing but pain, sorrow and more torture..... i was alone... i lost all my friends...i lost EVERYONE. it was me and my death bed and the rude nurses. i wondered to my myself, WASN'T I SUPPOSED TO BE DEAD???
it hit me....i missed it by a whisker!!! oh noooooooo what just happened? i missed death just like the way you can miss your daily bus to school....
Mum......was very disappointed in me.... i know she would have strangled me....dad would have hacked me to death...reason....I SHAME AND DISGRACE!!! from the fire to the FURNACE....
what did i do? i could not face anyone....i hated myself, i felt worthless, hopeless, dirty.......i was ALONE......
time moved and no sooner than i had blinked it was june. things happened so fast......things started falling apart again, i was going to run mad....UNTIL it was time again...........
