STORY OF MY LIFE

yesss...thats me right there.....beautiful huh?
here is the story of my life.....just but to mention....its complicated...born to the most loving parents some very many years ago.....(am old LOL)....i lived a very happy and cheerful childhood.....one to die for, how i miss those days....been a child, the most precious gift you possessed was one of INNOCENCE.... unfortunately my innocence was robbed of immediately i clocked 18!!!
at that particular time it never really mattered to me... i wanted to be free and INDEED i was free....from school(the syk i had immediately after finishing my F4) oh my it was unbelievable......

in 2008 december 30th i met my boyfriend....call it love at first sight....the much love i had for this young man was unbelievable. no force could ever break what we had.....this went on until one fateful day, a day that i promised to forget (am glad its all in the past now) 17th April, i was so heartbroken...i could not believe it...i wanted to crush , i wanted the whole world to cramble and take me with it.....
i lied to myself that i can move on....i could not, i was not strong enough...i could bare this any more...i saw the love of my life taken.....and he went....

i prayed, but my prayers clearly hit the roof, they never reached to Him...i waited and waited for a sign....and NOTHING....i thought it was the end of me....

with the little energy that i had, i went to work...until one fateful day....ONE FATEFUL DAY!!!!i had had enough of the beatings, the torture and depression.......it was high time i took action

i sneaked out of the office and went home. i had already  decided, it was time...... time i left the earth to a better place....the GRAVE. i believed the grave was the best place for me...no heartbreaks, no loneliness just PEACE....the one grabbed away from me.....DEATH was my case this time round....

i went home took the pills and i made sure  called my boyfriend to tell him BYE........i took and i went....to a land of nothing but pain, sorrow and more torture..... i was alone... i lost all my friends...i lost EVERYONE. it was me and my death bed and the rude nurses. i wondered to my myself, WASN'T I SUPPOSED TO BE DEAD???
it hit me....i missed it by a whisker!!! oh noooooooo what just happened? i missed death just like the way you can miss your daily bus to school....

Mum......was very disappointed in me.... i know she would have strangled me....dad would have hacked me to death...reason....I SHAME AND DISGRACE!!! from the fire to the FURNACE....

 what did i do? i could not face anyone....i hated myself, i felt worthless, hopeless, dirty.......i was ALONE......
time moved and no sooner than i had blinked it was june. things happened so fast......things started falling apart again, i was going to run mad....UNTIL it was time again...........